Life’s_treasures

i know that this could happened but eventhough i am not yet ready… i was unprepared for the pain… parang ang bilis parin… i don’t know kung paano, kailan pa, saan… ang alam ko lang i woke up one morning and i felt this strange feeling… it’s like i’ve fallen already unexpectedly for the wrong person… i must admit i like him even before i met him (the man in my recent relationship)… and he was the reason why i can’t really fully love him… i’ve tried but i can’t because he already occupy that certain space in my heart… and now he is the reason why that space was tearing apart… but can i blame him for all of my tears… no i can’t though the pain is unbearable i can’t blame noone… i just wish that this will pass as soon as possible… i don’t know how long will i be able to take it… it’s hard to pretend that you don’t love someone when deep inside your heart you really do… my heart and my mind is battling… it seems that i’m lost… i wish someone could find me… 

i let you go because i know that’s what i should do… now i feel so sad because your gone..  it is so easy to let you stay by myside but i would feel guilty for letting you stay and wait for me until i fulfill all my responsibilities… i can’t deny the fact that i really like you but i don’t want to be selfish by keeping you in a relationship when i don’t know how long will you have to wait for me and i’m afraid that you might get tired of waiting and that someday you might realized  that you have waited for so long for the wrong person… i don’t want you to waste your time on me… when you should be with someone else who can fulfill her responsibility to you… i can’t let you be tied up in this kind of relationship so i had to let you go but it doesn’t mean that i don’t care for you… the truth is i care for you a lot that’s why i’m setting you free… you deserve to explore and meet other people who would make you complete rather than keeping you with me waiting… if God really wants us to end up together then he will surely find a way for us someday…. i wish you happiness although were apart from each other…