I could still remember how we first met

The way you look at me

The way you’d smile

We got along too well

Like more than friends do

But now I’ve realized

That’s not what were supposed to do

Though I tried to

But it turn out wrong

I risk my heart in the line

That’s why I fall,

Fall deeper into the trap

I thought everything’s okey,

Everything was right

I even taught that you are the one

But then I made a mistake,

I made a mistake for trusting you

Now I know it was all a game

I should leave the pain,

The hurt and our memories behind

Even though it still hurts

I have to move on

And maybe someday the man

That I have been longing for

Will come to my life and never let go

Until that day I will just wait

I could then say that I’ve learn my lesson in….

Your Game of Love……..

It’s the Lover not the Love Lyrics

He broke your heart and said goodbye
After promising forever
You wonder why you even tried
He was such a good pretender

The love you gave was all in vain
And nothing anyone can say
Could ever make you love that way again
It’s the lover not the love
Who broke your heart last night
It’s the lover not the dream
That didn’t work out right
If you listen to your heart
You’ll know it’s true
It’s the lover not the love
Who deserted you

Don’t stop reachin’ for the stars
Let tomorrow live inside you
And just remember who you are
Keep the faith and love will find you

A heart in love can lose it’s true
Don’t give up in time to find
The one who’s right will come to you

It’s the lover not the love
Who broke your heart last night
It’s the lover not the dream
That didn’t work out right
If you listen to your heart
You’ll know it’s true
It’s the lover not the love
Who deserted you

It does no good to second guess
Whether love is wrong or right
If it was really meant to be
He’d be with you tonight

It’s the lover not the love
Who broke your heart last night
It’s the lover not the dream
That didn’t turn out right
If you listen to your heart
You’ll know it’s true
It’s the lover not the love
Who deserted you

to be able to love others we must first learn to love ourselves the right way. tama naman di ba? bago ka magbigay ng love sa iba kailangang matutunan mo munang mahalin ng tama ang sarili mo. Know your limitations and others limitations to you. hindi perpekto ang buhay ko marami akong ups and downs sometimes nga i am having a problem standing after the bad fall but i manage to get up parin because i know that’s what i should do. i may fall this time but i won’t let myself fall again for the second time pero if ever mangyari na naman ulit yun iisa ang ibig sabihin nun hindi parin ako natututo which i doubt na mangyayari. i’m a fast learner kasi sa tuwing madadapa ako nag iiwan yun ng sugat na kapag naglaon nagiging marka, marka na magpapaalala ng pagkakamali ko na di na dapat maulit pa. hindi naman binibilang dito kung ilang beses kang nadapa kundi ilang beses kang bumangon sa pagkakadapa mo. di ko naman sinasabing sobrang lakas and tatag ko na, na kahit sino di na ako matitibag, di ko naman masisigurado ang bukas ang alam ko lang kahit ilang beses akong bumagsak sisiguruhin ko na kahit gaano kahirap babangon parin ako. kahit umiyak pa ako maghapon at magdamag sigurado ako na may makikita parin akong magandang dahilan para ngumiti.

i thought before na magiging masaya ako kung magkakaroon na ako ng lovelife na isang tao na maibabandera ko na boyfriend ko but i was wrong. hindi ko na kailangang maghanap ng taong magpapasaya sa akin dahil nasa tabi ko na ang mga taong nagmamahal at tumatanggap sa buo kong pagkatao. hanap pa ako ng hanap ang nahahanap ko naman ay mga taong nananakit lang sa akin. ayoko na i’m tired of it. Tired of looking for someone to love me pagkatapos sa bandang huli siya pang mananakit sa akin. nagka boyfriend nga ako pero anong nangyari ipinagpalit naman ako sa teacher. hehehe mabuti nalang di ko pa siya ganun kamahal kasi mas lalong masasaktan ako or worst baka magbulag bulagan nalang ako sa panloloko niya. well i can’t blame him mas inuuna ko kasi ang responsibilities ko with my family. mas priority ko sila kasi mas kailangan nila ako kaya second nalang ang pansarili kong kaligayahan. Mahirap humanap ng tao na maiintindihan ang situation ko kaya wag nalang. siguro di bagay sa akin ang suungin ang larangan ng pag ibig. Okey lang ako. dapat makuntento ako sa mga bagay na meron ako. Masaya naman ako kasi alam ko na nagagampanan ko naman ang role ko bilang anak ng mga magulang ko. Sa tuwing napapangiti ko ang inay naiisip ko na i’m worth it to be their daughter.

I am still young when it comes to love and relationship that’s why i end up in pain. I am fond of fairytale love stories and i dreamt of having one for myself, but as time goes by and experience gone by, i learned that realities are much more different that fantasies. I’ve been to a hard times recently, i broke my heart along the way. At first i was really dissappointed and hurt, because of the thought that he just played with my feelings, i don’t know, maybe he really did but i don’t think that the answer is necessary anymore. I’ve learned my lesson the hard way but this will be fruitful for me. I will apply this lesson in every step of the my way so that i will get aware of things or people around me.  Now, i should get even more closer to God and focus on how i will reach my goals for myself and my family. God, Me and my Family are much more important than dwelling on the pain and Bad Memories (I should then replace it with good ones). From now on i will love God even more, Love my family even more and love myself even more.

A time comes in your life when you finally get it…When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on.
And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening. You realize that it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren’t always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are … and that’s OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.)
You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it’s not always about you.
And you begin to sift through all the crap you’ve been fed about how you should behave; how you should look and how much you should weigh; what you should wear and where you should shop; and what you should drive how and where you should live; and what you should do for a living; who you should sleep with, who you should marry, and what you should expect of a marriage; the importance of having and raising children; or what you owe your parents.
You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing.
You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.
You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.
You learn that just as people grow and change so it is with love…and you learn that you don’t have the right to demand love on your terms…just to make you happy.
And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely…
And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you “stack up.”
You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won’t settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch…and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise.
You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn, that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve … and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people.
On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn’t punishing you or failing to answer your prayers.
It’s just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state-the ego.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to building bridges instead of walls.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.
Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and to make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart’s desire.
And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

Knowing each day is an opportunity to turn things around in our lives..Walk by Faith and not by Sight

lately, i thought i could easily forget my feelings but i prove myself wrong. Eventhough i’ve tried but i can’t just leave it all behind… i been trying too hard but it’s not working… i wanted to cry my heart out but i can’t… does this mean that i’m still holding on to something that is not really meant to be… i felt like i am suffocated and everyday i’m having a hard time breathing and i don’t know what to do… something inside is driving me crazy… really crazy that i can’t seem to control… how i wish i could turn back the time and prevent things from happening… so everything will still be the same as it was before… i laugh in front of everyone but deep inside i feel so empty and lonely… my heart is asking why… and my mind is telling that it’s not fair… i’m preventing my heart to  get hurt but i can’t seem to find a way to make me feel any better… i wish someone will be here to prevent my shattered heart from falling…

i know that this could happened but eventhough i am not yet ready… i was unprepared for the pain… parang ang bilis parin… i don’t know kung paano, kailan pa, saan… ang alam ko lang i woke up one morning and i felt this strange feeling… it’s like i’ve fallen already unexpectedly for the wrong person… i must admit i like him even before i met him (the man in my recent relationship)… and he was the reason why i can’t really fully love him… i’ve tried but i can’t because he already occupy that certain space in my heart… and now he is the reason why that space was tearing apart… but can i blame him for all of my tears… no i can’t though the pain is unbearable i can’t blame noone… i just wish that this will pass as soon as possible… i don’t know how long will i be able to take it… it’s hard to pretend that you don’t love someone when deep inside your heart you really do… my heart and my mind is battling… it seems that i’m lost… i wish someone could find me… 

i let you go because i know that’s what i should do… now i feel so sad because your gone..  it is so easy to let you stay by myside but i would feel guilty for letting you stay and wait for me until i fulfill all my responsibilities… i can’t deny the fact that i really like you but i don’t want to be selfish by keeping you in a relationship when i don’t know how long will you have to wait for me and i’m afraid that you might get tired of waiting and that someday you might realized  that you have waited for so long for the wrong person… i don’t want you to waste your time on me… when you should be with someone else who can fulfill her responsibility to you… i can’t let you be tied up in this kind of relationship so i had to let you go but it doesn’t mean that i don’t care for you… the truth is i care for you a lot that’s why i’m setting you free… you deserve to explore and meet other people who would make you complete rather than keeping you with me waiting… if God really wants us to end up together then he will surely find a way for us someday…. i wish you happiness although were apart from each other…

Kung Paano - Jasmine Trias

One day a girl fell in love with a boy

But some things you have to learn to let go